GETTING STARTED

Have you ever had a dream that you wanted to do for so long but couldn't out of fear of failure? a dream that could have been reality long ago if you had only taken that first step? well that dream of mine is this. Writing, has been a dream I've been mooning about since I was but a child, a dream I thought of quite frequently but never made a move to turn into reality. I didn't even write for school papers or anything at all. I wrote for myself in the confines of my own bedroom, I kept every work a secret, countless of essays and letters never got to see the light of day. I feared my works would reach others who would openly state their dislike for my work. I feared that I may truly become a failure at the one thing I wanted to do the most. For years I have battled with self doubts, doubts that never seem to have an end, a well of negative thoughts designed to torture me to become anyone but who I want to be. Reading and writing have been an important aspects of my life, a comfort zone, a form of entertainment. It was just reading at first. The first ever book I remember so vividly reading was the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer, the series was at the height of fame then and I read it out of sheer curiosity, to say that the experience was cataclysmic was and still is an understatement, that book had opened my eyes and mind to other stories and books, it had showed me how powerful reading really is. I read it so many times my paperback got cut in half . I wish I could tell you I didn't watch the movie over and over again until the very lines are ingrained into my brains, but I did shamelessly. My love for the book bled into my everyday life, I had a phase wherein I actually thought that there was a tiny possibility that vampires are real but to my dismay they weren't, not in any sense of reality do they exist. A disappointment indeed, my 13 year old self would be crushed by this certain reality. Bella was at that time the ideal girl, although I now see her as reckless and someone who fails to notice the caution in the wind even if it is thrown right at her face. I miss how naïve I was, when prince charming's are a possibility I have yet to explore. After Twilight, I had gotten to read many great books from Princess Diaries to a Diary of a Wimpy Kid, to Blood from Ash and countless more. I thoroughly enjoy and am in constant awe at the world building, at how the words were linked together to execute such a lyrical story and I wish I could do the same. I wish I could stitch together a world not so easily forgettable. A world that would propel teens and adult alike to read more, because there is so many worlds out here worth exploring. I want to be able to write a piece that would touch people's heart hence this blog. Today I finally got the courage to start a blog, to create an Instagram account to share bits and pieces that are kept hidden in my mind. Today I tell you that I'm just getting started.